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It’s ayudha pooja tomorrow…..eve of ayudha pooja was always fun as we children got to play in water while washing vehicles and decorating them with flowers for the pooja...some 12-14 years back, all three of us, myself, sachin and dad would be busy washing the only vehicle we owned then, TVS XL 50…..the concluding part of the wash, wiping the vehicle with a dry cloth was assigned to me and sachin…...once we were done, we clapped and jumped and shouted…daddy gaadi ready…daddy gaadi ready…..he he…..it was fun….today while I was busy washing all three vehicles all by myself, it brought back all those memories….when I think of it, it’s shocking to realize that things have changed so much in not more than a decade…….now we own things that we never had imagined we would……we have lost things that we never had thought we would……not even in our wildest dreams…….they say one has to lose something to gain something……. but who decides on what is it that we lose or gain…..can ‘that’ something’ and ‘this’ something be measured on the same weight……can materialistic comforts be compared with emotions, lives, moments.….can things we gain replace things we lose…..every person is unique…..every relationship is unique……no one can take anyone’s place in one’s life……as you go on losing, voids keep getting accumulated at that small corner of your life……some forget that corner exists, some keep visiting it once in a while and some live in that corner……..what if people were given an option to choose what they want to lose or gain….maybe we do get a chance and we don’t recognize it……even better, what if we had selective memory so that we could shift delete everything that hurt……maybe this is how life is and we have just got used to feeling unhappy about everything that’s happening in our lives….maybe if we had what we don’t have now, and didn’t have what we do have now, even then I would have cribbed….life still goes on with or without anyone……..this is going somewhere……..i don’t know what I’m trying to say…..it’s all so cluttered…so fuzzy…..this is not what I wanted to write when I started…..

Anyways trying to end this with a happy note, mysore looks beautiful in the night like a bride all set for the D-day :-)